My Millennial Life Crisis - My Trip to Boston

I'm an impulsive person at times. This is a blessing and a curse. However, I am thankful for this decision I made that day to book my trip to Boston. {Que in the song Boston by Augustana.} In October, my ex and I broke up. I was heartbroken and felt lost because I created this whole plan for us and my career. Everything changed within that night and going forward in the semester I defiantly was not in a good place. So what is the best way to fix it? Running away of course! I mean traveling. ;) So I booked a flight to Boston the day after my last final.

When I told my friends & my parents what I was doing I defiantly confused everyone. "Why are you doing this?" "You're going alone??" "Is it safe for you to do this?" My answer, "I'm doing this for me. I'm doing this to learn to be by myself." My family & friends stopped questioning me because 1. when I get set on doing something I'm doing it and 2. they all knew I was going through something. I created a list of things I wanted to do which included ice skating, see Fenway, eat a Cannoli from Mike's Pastry, and going to a Celtics game. Thus, I created a name for this trip. My Millennial Life Crisis. I promised myself I can not scroll through Instagram, Facebook, and Snapchat on this trip. I can post things, but I can not be on my phone longer then 5 minutes.

Fast Forward to December 7 @ 5 AM and my best friend came and picked me up to head to the airport. I'm excited to start this journey, but there was this fear of how will I feel being alone? I pushed through that fear and got on the plane. An hour and 20 minutes later I was in Boston Logan Airport. A rush of excitement and cold air hit my face as I walked outside and got in my Uber to the hotel.

My trip was a blast, but I did battle with I am alone. Especially at the end of the night when I came back to my hotel room. However, whenever I had a thought of "man, I'm all alone." I changed it to "I get to sleep in this King bed and sprawl out!" This trip was eye opening and made me feel empowered. The fact that I can go to a bar and just chat with the person next to me and have a beer. I talked to this lawyer student for an hour about places we both have traveled and where the other person should go. I found out from another person I talked to there was a concert going on few streets over. It was nice to talk to the person next to me with no expectations and just be human. I am guilty of scrolling through my phone if I feel awkward and if no one I know is next to me. I want to be better at not doing that.

My favorite night was Monday night. I went to a Celtics game and had THEY BEST TIME! Seriously. Cheering and enjoying being part of the crowd was a great time. I finished the night with buffalo wings and a beer. I think I enjoyed everything so much, because I was not on someone else time. I did not have to share the time I was in Boston or ask for someones opinion. If I wanted to go back to my hotel to take a nap I did. If I wanted an Irish Pub over an Italian meal I went to an Irish Pub. If I wanted to spend 2 hours at the Isabella Stewart Gardner Museum I did! I was able to be selfish in this trip and it was nice to think "What do I want to do today." Please, please, please take a trip alone. You do not have to get out of a relationship to decide to book a trip alone. You just have to decide to take a trip alone for you.

A quote I stumbled on this morning,

"Remember, growing might feel like breaking first"

And it is true! I was feeling like I was breaking the second half of the semester, but this trip has helped me feel more like myself. I am still need to do some growing and work on being an individual again. Nevertheless, I am excited for my future and learning more about myself. I am home for the holidays for a month and I have plans to see old friends. I really want to get re-energized with things I love. I want to get back into my finding pharmacy blog, I want to exercise more, and I want to recognize things within myself. This was my restart. This was the start to me and growing into the women I want to be. I'm 24, still have a lot to learn, and it doesn't happen over night. I hoping for the best and for a great 2020 and I don't think it would have be possible without such a great ending of the year. Spending time alone was eye opening and made me realize more of the person I would like to be.

"Cheers to you, Cheers to me. Cheers to my Millennial Life Crisis"